okay,, hmm.. on sunday i will going back to segamat.. and okay.. i am not ready yet to start the new sem.. its like YAALLAH, kenapa lah cuti ni kejap sgt je.. okay actually hati aku ni mcm dah sangat tak tenteram je.. entah lah.. i am not ready to leave all people that i really love, care.. i am not ready to leave my family, my love iskandar.. my life here in seremban...
i really wish if the semester break is more longer.. it is not enough to spent the time that i have with my loved ones.. it is sad.. i will miss my family.. i will miss the holiday vacation with my family.. and i know after this i will not able to follow them anymore.. cz i will be in segamat.. oh man.. segamat.. its like wanna kill my self when i think about segamat.. there is no fun there u know.. honestly it is no fund.. but i am lucky to have a really great friends there.. so im not too bored.. i don't know how to describe the sadness to go back to segamat.. entahla... aku ni dah la seorang yang sangat tak boleh nak terima kalau aku kena tinggal kalau family aku yang lain berjalan.. mmg air mata pun berduraian jatuh berlinangan lah kan.. nasib baik hari tu ayah ku tersayang bawa the whole family pegi holiday kat genting. ade je gamba nya.. tapi entah kenapa lah aku malas sgt nak upload.. kalau dulu ada gamba.. fuhlamak.. cepat gila kot nak upload kat fb.. tapi sekarang dah malas lah.. mcm childish sgt je...hahhaha
okay then i will not only miss my family.. but ofcz also iskandar dzulkarnaen mohd hashim.. okay nama penuh ye.. hmm... aku tak kesah la ape korang nak ckp pasal blog aku ni.. cz just what i feel is, this is my blog.. and it depends on me nak ckp pasal apa.. hmm.. okay honestly.. i will really rally really really really really really really miss him... the reasons is we had spent a lot of time together.. a lot of time.. okay.. kitorang sama negeri iaitu sereban.. but we do not see each other frequently.. sebab nya dia study dekat ipoh perak and i at segamat johor bharu... hahaha.. can u see how far it is??? hmmm... tu lah... and tadi ptg aku bru je lepas jumpa dia.. but unfortunately, some crisis coming up..but not with him.. with some one la kan.. and i am too sad... until i can't control my tears.. and i coll him.. nasib baik dia dengar... entah lah.. it just too sad... it just too sad.. to many things that i need to think.. that i need to take care.. the heart, the love.. sometimes i feel i tried the best... but it comes up in a different way.. people just can't understand it.. people misinterpret what i am trying to make them understand.. bila kita dah mencuba.. kita lupekan hati kita.. kita lupa apa yang kita sebenarnya nak. untuk cuba jaga hati banyak orang... dan akhirnya kita gagal... it feel like so sad.. so damn sad.. dua2 pun penting.. dua2 pun sayang.. it just so hard.. and make me feel sometime i can't stand it anymore.. mcm tak nak jaga hati sape2.. just do what i like... tapi.. aku tahu budi bahasa lagi.. tak elok buat orang kecewa.. it is not good to make people feel disappointed with us.. moreover with older people.. entah la...
air mata yang keluar menggambarkan pelbagai perasaan.. perasaan yang tak sanggup untuk berpisah dengan keluarga, dengan orang yang tercinta.. entah la... sebab nya mcm there are my life here.. i just don't like to be away from my loved ones... it just so sad.. so sad... just wanna let my family know that i will always remember them, and for iskandar tersayang.. just wanna let u remember that i love u so much, i know what u didn't like, i know what is bad and what is good.. i will miss all moment when i'm with you.. i really will miss it sayang... just believe in me and please be honest in everything.. thats all..
i love you
<3
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